This blog is called “Kayla Keeps Running” because I was knocked out of the running game for almost a year due to my right hip. It took about nine months to figure out what was wrong with my hip and another three months post surgery just to get cleared to do a walk-run program. I’ve spent the last four months grinding on my comeback game and had the opportunity to reap some of those benefits at the Purdue Half Marathon in October. I was so incredibly happy to be running again and really felt like I was finally getting back to my normal before all the hip pain started.
Unfortunately, hours after I finished that half marathon, I felt very familiar pain in my left hip. When you feel the same pain for nine months, it’s pretty recognizable. I tried to convince myself that I was just sore and needed a week of rest, but I knew exactly what that pain really meant. After my week of rest and a couple more weeks of running, I accepted that the pain that was in my right hip many months ago was now making an appearance in my left hip and the pain was increasing fast.
I won’t bore you with all the details regarding discussions with my doctor, new medications, and the many tears shed realizing I was going to have to start over…again. Long story short, I am now having the same hip surgery for a femoroacetabular impingement on my left hip instead of my right. I knew this was a possibility for me to begin with because it has to do with my bone structure and many individuals with this issue end up having to have surgery on both of their hips too. This situation is nothing that is in my control, but is still devastating.
I have spent so much time and energy coming back from the first surgery and regaining my fitness again. It felt like a long and slow process and it sucks that I have to go through it all over again. Not only just go through it again, but go through it again with having both surgeries in the same year. It’s a hard thing to swallow and there have been moments of defeat, anger, doubt, and sadness. I do my best to keep perspective. Perspective meaning there are many other important things in life going on and many other much more serious injuries and illnesses happening. Also, perspective meaning I’m young and have so much more time in my life for my running career.
I know this journey has life lessons tucked away that will soon unravel. I know it will make me a stronger and more resilient individual and it has already proved to me that life isn’t fair. I’m not going to pretend like this process is a fun one because it’s not, but I’m also not going to wallow in the unfairness life presents. I’m going to take a deep breath, allow myself to feel the emotions that fill me, and face the situation head on. Running means everything to me and I know it is going to feel so damn worth it when I finally get to another starting line again.
While I will no longer be running for the next several months, this blog is called “Kayla Keeps Running” because through life’s ups and downs (mental, physical, etc.), I’m going to continue to put my left foot in front of my right and keep running.